Pubdate: Sun, 22 Nov 1998 Source: Dallas Morning News (TX) Copyright: 1998 The Dallas Morning News Contact: http://www.dallasnews.com/ Author: Rolf Ernst I'VE BEEN THERE Re: "Task force's view on drugs is firsthand," Nov. 8. Steve Blow's column saddens but does not surprise me. I too am a member of the Drug Policy Forum of Texas, and share the belief that regulation of illicit drugs in the same manner as alcohol is the only reasonable answer to our country's problems. Unfortunately, the attitude Mr. Blow describes is the prevalent one. He writes about a police officer who contends reformers are far removed from the realities of the harm caused by drugs. This is not true for me. I have been there. I was a junkie. I started using hard drugs at 16. I started intravenous use when I was 20. Since needle exchanges were illegal, I shared needles and contracted Hepatitis C when I was 21. I tried to take my life three times after five days without sleep under the influence of stimulants. I have pumped more poison into my body than I care to remember, and spent the equivalent of a house on it. Nobody needs to tell me about the devastating effects drug abuse can have on a person's life. I earn six figures now, but there was a time in my life when I couldn't eat as I waited for the man to buy the next fix. I have two children now that I love dearly, a wonderful wife and a white picket fence life. I don't use drugs of any kind, including alcohol. The officer mentioned in the article states that he believes the black market would not disappear: None of the dealers I have met would be in the business if drugs were regulated. None of the many users would have to steal your car, break into your house or commit any number of other crimes to finance their habit. There would be no turf wars and neighborhoods would be safe. There would be no illegal market as the example of alcohol clearly shows. I don't want my children to use drugs. I want to make drugs as unavailable to them as I can. While alcohol is sold in stores and largely unavailable to children, pot is readily available in any schoolyard. I know the devastating potential drugs represent and I don't want anybody going through what I have gone through. I have given this much thought and I know that the best way to get there is regulation. Rolf Ernst, Frisco - --- Checked-by: Patrick Henry